You can't keep thinking what could have been because there is something being now,happening that you are leaving apart or disgracing but it is said everywhere, we can't change what's been and gone, you can stick to it as long as you want but you only hurt yourself. This is no discovery at all, we all know it, the thing is we get to caught up in the moment that we let ourselves be ruled by emotions. Sometimes I think, we can never count on people cause we never know if they will be there, and not because they might eventually not support you, but rather a more simple thing, we don't live forever. So we can't either count on ourselves or our plans, because we don't know when we'll have our last breaths. Before I was only thinking "you don't touch me anymore", over and over again, and just now I thought how dumb of me to get caught up in what is lost, but just now I think that as they say "when there's a will, there's a way", so there is probably a way that you'll be my friend again and I know its worthy trying cause I know what a great friend you are but I also know that I have no security of tomorrow, and what will happen to us, so what? What do we do? I know it's a dumb example, but the point is still there, no one gives a book on how to overcome the struggles of life, or life itself, no one gives us guidelines, nothing and still here we are, not wandering the streets but rather working, studying, fighting,talking, filling the space that has been given to us with no purpose at all. Carpe diem? Is that the answer? Seize the day. Thing is, if I could do everything I want I would, but we are limited, and can't change that, we can try, we can change certain things, but we are not given the choice before we are grown so there's never really a way of seizing the day to the fullest, there is taking advantage with what you've got, and each have different amount or things, some have got nothing but life and the minimun chances of making it through.
Nobody said it was easy, nobody ever said it would be this hard.