Don't hurt me

One thought, one word, one image, one person can tear it all apart in the blink of an eye. Please drain away all these thoughts that I hold inside,I just can't keep up with the world outside, in any sense. I can't, no matter how hard I try, all these thoughts they come back even if they are unrealistic, even if they drag me to the past, one that had been forgotten, even if they are meaningless, even if I know and I've assumed they are not worthy of crying even thinking of, they always come back. Please make them go away, they just make me wanna be alone, that's what I'm longing for, just to finish up and dissappear so I don't get hurt, so I don't feel dissapointed, so I don't dissapoint the ones I love.